please go away. it’s already hard enough to see that you’re doing fine without me.

O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath.
For your arrows have pierced me, and your hand has come down upon me.
- Psalm 38:1-2 (NIV)

My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear.
My wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly.
I am bowed down and brought very low; all day long I go about mourning.
My back is filled with searing pain; there is no health in my body.
I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart.
All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.
My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes.
- Psalm 38:4-10 (NIV)

I wait for you, O LORD; you will answer, O Lord my God.
- Psalm 38:15 (NIV)

For I am about to fall, and my pain is ever with me.
I confess my iniquity; I am troubled by my sin.
- Psalm 38:17-18 (NIV)

O LORD, do not forsake me; be not far from me, O my God.
Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior.
- Psalm 38:21-22 (NIV)

>.<

December just started … yet everything is already stressful ughh.

ever felt so ashamed of yourself that you put yourself in a really hard consequence after what you did? … yup, that’s me.

God is so good. after this stressful weekend, I seriously thought I failed that history quiz and my essay. but you know, God is so faithful to us when we are faithless in Him. convicts me every time … but at the same time, it reminds me what my #1 priority should be :)

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:2 (NIV)